i'm busy working on cocoa/puss issue #4. maybe busy isn't the right word because i love my zine and it isn't exactly "work" to put it out. it's actually the highlight of my crazy fucked up life. i love the responses and the copying and the glue everywhere. i love stickers on enevelopes and trades and all of it. i'm just in the brainstorming phase right now. trying not to force the writing out. read a little bukowski and he said something about if you have to sit and force the words out,you shouldn't do it. except if it's grad school homework.
anyway, i have about four pages done so far, most of which are about relationships and love which is a new emotion to me. i'm usually disgusted with men and treat them the same way they treat me. also i wrote about attention and still wanting other guys to think i'm hot but feeling like i'm a bad girlfriend because of that---> boundaries. i also wrote about being one of the only black women making zines right now and asking other people to collab with me or work on their own zines so i'm not so alone.
what else do i want to write about: the black betty davis being so much more interesting and better looking than the white one, apple cider vinegar/douching and that sort of thing, my seeptum piercing, do guys really like getting their butt played with (my friend daria says some do, i personally don't like butts, maybe she can write that story then). pole dancing, and possibly a picture or two. but of what? you've seen pretty much my whole body in issue #3. well actually you haven't. but there will be pictures of something. maybe not me. we'll see.
i also want to make you a valentines day makeout cd. if you have nobody to make out with then it'll be a masturbation cd. with my first issue when i was feeling very generous i offered a cd with that issue. i want to do that again. we'll see.
issues #1-3 will be back up for sale/trade when i get back to minnesota. i sold over 70 zines since march. not bad for a first year i think. any more and i would have gone crazy.